What Nearly Killed Me
And How It Made Me Stronger
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Justin Gonzalez
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How much abuse can you witness before you acted to stop it? How much abuse can you suffer from before you acted to stop it?
The abuse and trauma that Justin Tyler Gonzalez suffered from throughout his childhood almost killed him. Years later, and now in a safe space, Justin recounts how divorced parents, mental and physical abuse, toxic stress, generational trauma, and LGBT discrimination have affected him and how he managed to survive.
Justin goes on to share how these events affected his life, as well as his personal, tried-and-true recovery techniques for healing from childhood trauma and abuse.
Justin hopes to encourage those who listen to this audiobook to break the cycle of abuse in their own life. He encourages his listeners to take positive steps toward healing, asking for help, and being the brave, strong, and resilient one who heals not only themselves but also future generations.
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