
Permanent Midnight
A Memoir (20th Anniversary Edition)
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Narrated by:
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Jerry Stahl
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Scott Merriman
About this listen
“An extraordinary accomplishment.... A remarkable book that will be of great value to people who feel isolated, alienated and overwhelmed by the circumstances of their lives.” --Hubert Selby, Jr., author of Last Exit to Brooklyn
“[Stahl] is a better-than-Burroughs virtuoso.” --Thomas Mallon, The New Yorker
“Original, appalling, indelible picture of a man trying to swim and drown at the same time. Stahl has nerve, heart, a language of his own and a ghastly, riotous humor.” --Tobias Wolff, author of This Boy’s Life
“Permanent Midnight is one of the most harrowing and toughest accounts ever written in this century about what it means to be a junkie in America, making Burroughs look dated and Kerouac appear as the nose-thumbing adolescent he was.” --Booklist
A searing confessional infused with the darkest humor, Permanent Midnight chronicles the opiated abyss of a Hollywood screenwriter and his formidable climb into sobriety.
Made into a major motion picture starring Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson, Permanent Midnight is revered by critics and an ever-growing cult of devoted fans as one of the most compelling contemporary memoirs.
©2015 by Jerry Stahl (P)2015 by Rare Bird Books, all rights reserved. Music © 2015 by Joe Cardamone.Listeners also enjoyed...
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That's What Junkies Do is a brutally honest, often dark journey of one man's struggle with alcoholism and drug addiction. The story starts innocently enough in 1980's Brooklyn, NY, with a young boy, Thomas Figlioli, making a bad choice so he could gain the respect of a group of kids he looked up to and admired. Alcohol gives him the courage to be the person he always wanted to be. His fear and insecurity leaves and his lifelong struggle begins. When thoughts of ending it all become a better choice than living how he is, Thomas finally asks for help.
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The honesty and story gripped me right from the beginning and never let go.
- By JOHN GERMIN on 09-08-21
By: Thomas Figlioli
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I Forgot to Die
- By: Khalil Rafati
- Narrated by: Khalil Rafati
- Length: 6 hrs and 29 mins
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Khalil Rafati went to Los Angeles in the 1990s and had it all. He was working with Hollywood movie stars and legendary rock musicians, but it wasn't long before he found his way into the dark underbelly of the City of Angels. When he hit rock bottom-addicted to heroin and cocaine, overtaken by paranoia and psychosis, written off by his friends and family - he grabbed a shovel and kept digging. So how does someone with nothing, who feels like they deserve nothing, and who just wants to end it all turn their life around?
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Jails, Institutions & (almost) Death
- By Courtney on 05-25-17
By: Khalil Rafati
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High
- Everything You Want to Know About Drugs, Alcohol, and Addiction
- By: David Sheff, Nic Sheff
- Narrated by: George Newbern, Graham Halstead
- Length: 4 hrs and 19 mins
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Just say know! With drug education for children more important than ever, this nonfiction book draws on the experiences of the New York Times best-selling father-and-son team to provide all the information teens and 'tweens need to know about drugs, alcohol, and addiction. From David Sheff, author of Beautiful Boy, and Nic Sheff, author of Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines, comes the ultimate resource for learning about the realities of drugs and alcohol for middle-grade listeners.
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- By Robert DeWitt on 09-24-20
By: David Sheff, and others
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Dreamseller
- An Addiction Memoir
- By: Brandon Novak
- Narrated by: Brandon Novak
- Length: 8 hrs
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At seven, Brandon was a skateboard prodigy. By the time he was fourteen, he was living the dream. Discovered by skate legends Bucky Lasek and Tony Hawk. Touring the US with the elite Powell-Peralta team. Signing autographs and appearing in films and magazines. Brandon had it all. Then he got hooked on heroin. Soon he was living a down-and-out life in a garage, begging for change, and hustling to score his next fix. He stole from his family and friends. He pushed the fantasy that everything was okay, that he was going to rehab, getting help, and getting better. But it was all a lie.
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true story
- By Andi T on 08-07-24
By: Brandon Novak
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Tweakerworld
- A Memoir
- By: Jason Yamas
- Narrated by: Jason Yamas
- Length: 10 hrs and 32 mins
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After Jason’s world falls apart in LA, he moves to Berkeley for a fresh start with his kid brother. Just one problem: his long-closeted Adderall addiction has exploded into an out-of-control crystal meth binge. Within weeks, Jason plunges into the sprawling ParTy n’ ’Play subculture of the Bay Area’s gay community. It is a wildly decadent scene of drugs, group sex, and criminals, and yet it is also filled with surprising characters, people who are continually subverting Jason’s own presumptions of the stereotypical tweaker.
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Exhausting
- By Thom Pierson on 03-09-23
By: Jason Yamas
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Smacked
- A Story of White-Collar Ambition, Addiction, and Tragedy
- By: Eilene Zimmerman
- Narrated by: Eilene Zimmerman
- Length: 6 hrs and 36 mins
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Something was wrong with Peter. Eilene Zimmerman noticed that her ex-husband looked thin, seemed distracted, and was frequently absent from activities with their children. Yet in many ways, Peter seemed to have it all. So begins Smacked, a brilliant and moving memoir of Eilene’s shocking discovery, one that sets her on a journey to find out how a man she knew for nearly 30 years became a drug addict, hiding it so well that neither she nor anyone else in his life suspected what was happening.
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Fantastic and captivating.
- By Julie Vandenheuvel on 03-12-20
By: Eilene Zimmerman
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One Hit Away: A Memoir of Recovery
- By: Jordan P. Barnes
- Narrated by: Ryan Haugen
- Length: 10 hrs and 46 mins
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At the age of 24, Jordan Barnes woke up next to a lifeless body, rifled through his dead friends’ pockets for any remaining heroin, and went right back to using. Strung out and homeless during the supposed best years of his life, there was no clear way out of the opioid crisis ravaging the streets of Portland, Oregon. But though Jordan had long accepted his fate, his parents still held out hope and would do everything in their power to get him the help he so desperately needed.
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thank you
- By Melanie Alexandra on 03-05-21
By: Jordan P. Barnes
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Damaged Goods
- A Memoir
- By: Shelley Louise
- Narrated by: Jeanne Scurek
- Length: 6 hrs and 12 mins
- Unabridged
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This is a deeply personal story of a young woman’s journey through addiction; the loss of her child’s father through an overdose, her mother’s suicide, and the tragic consequences that those lifestyle choices bring. At 15, Shelley was submerged into the seedy world of the red-light district of Honolulu. As the warm-up act for the strippers, she became a topless dancer only to discover she was not emotionally prepared for the lewd attention. Pills and heroin helped her to cope with a lifestyle that was beyond her years.
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The narration was tough to listen to. The story was interesting but I had to stop listening mid way through.
- By Amazon Customer on 03-28-25
By: Shelley Louise
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Beautiful Boy
- A Father's Journey through His Son's Meth Addiction
- By: David Sheff
- Narrated by: Anthony Heald
- Length: 11 hrs and 28 mins
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David Sheff's story is a first: a teenager's addiction from the parent's point of view, a real-time chronicle of the shocking descent into substance abuse and the gradual emergence into hope.
Before meth, Sheff's son, Nic, was a varsity athlete, honor student, and award-winning journalist. After meth, he was a trembling wraith who stole money from his eight-year-old brother and lived on the streets. With haunting candor, Sheff traces the first warning signs, the attempts at rehabilitation, and, at last, the way past addiction. He shows us that, whatever an addict's fate, the rest of the family must care for one another, too, lest they become addicted to addiction.
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Been There
- By Happy Reader on 11-26-12
By: David Sheff
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Unbroken Brain
- A Revolutionary New Way of Understanding Addiction
- By: Maia Szalavitz
- Narrated by: Marisa Vitali
- Length: 12 hrs and 35 mins
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Challenging both the idea of the addict's "broken brain" and the notion of a simple "addictive personality", Unbroken Brain offers a radical and groundbreaking new perspective, arguing that addiction is a learning disorder, and shows how seeing the condition this way can untangle our current debates over treatment, prevention, and policy.
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Not what I expected
- By Jennifer Sader on 08-28-16
By: Maia Szalavitz
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How to Murder Your Life
- A Memoir
- By: Cat Marnell
- Narrated by: Cat Marnell
- Length: 11 hrs and 58 mins
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From Cat Marnell, "New York's enfant terrible" ( The Telegraph), a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.
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nice book
- By Taylor on 03-14-17
By: Cat Marnell
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- Danielle Shereshewsky
- 04-14-22
Gritty, no holds-bar, gut wrenching... HEROIN
Wow, where do I begin? This is as real as it gets. You want to know about heroin addiction?
This book is it. I laughed, I cringed, I was astonished. By far thee most down in the dumpster pit of addiction I've yet to read/listen to.
This blows the movie away.
Get this!
BRAVO to JS for having the soul-searching honesty to write this
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- Trisha
- 04-19-25
Background music
I love and want to learn this story.... just not through this audio book! tge background music is EXTREMELY annoying. it drive my anxiety through the roof (not even related to tge story or anything) The author seems brilliant and funny with a really interesting tale to tell. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND READING AND NOT LISTENING. IT DROVE ME INSANE. I HAD TO STOP. I WAS GETTING SO STRESSED BECAUSE OF THE CONSTANT (Beasty BoyIsh) music ! I MIGHT try to READ this?!
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- Trevor Staiger
- 02-24-21
Good story, distracting music
The story is real and raw and entertaining. The problem is that there is this awful jazzy music playing in the background the whole time. I tried getting my credit back, it was that distracting for me. I regretted this purchase.
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- Brenda Ramirez
- 02-24-23
Memoir assignment
I read Permanent Midnight for an assignment in my addictions class. Overall I thoroughly enjoyed the story. I usually don’t do audiobooks but out of necessity I tried it. The music realllyyyyy ruined it for me. I think the story suffered because of it, but Jerry’s detailed recall and vulnerability was captivating!
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- a1waystreet
- 09-08-20
WOW; Brutally Honest!
From page one gut reaching, raw and real addiction experiences of Jerry Stahl. The asks over and over- How is this man still alive? He truly has an Angel on his shoulder.
Well worth the read!
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- Unknown Reviewer
- 03-10-21
Such an unforgettable book ruined by frenetic guitar riffs
Honestly, I love this book and I enjoyed the voice of the narrator. I was so put off by the constant distraction of the background “music” (if you could call it that). It sounded like a meetup for 80s hair band guitarists, all warming up at once on an echoey stage. It made listening to this book resemble a subtle form of torture.
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- Lala
- 07-06-22
Couldn’t get past the strange background noise
The book was interesting but there’s an odd background sound that’s very faint, but super noticeable. I can’t tell if it’s music and supposed to be there or something else.
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- RunnerGirlDE
- 08-18-24
Human Condition
This dude had a crazy life. Got it all and lost it all. Only in America.
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- Shevaun Bastarache
- 03-23-21
Irritating music score
The music lasts throughout the entire book and hinders listening. The story itself is powerful.
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- Anonymous User
- 07-21-21
permanent change
glad i listened. a visceral journey through the bedevilment on addiction. amazing story. inspired by its truth.
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