
Disappoint Me
A Novel
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Narrated by:
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Martin Sarreal
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Mei Mei MacLeod
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By:
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Nicola Dinan
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An electrifying story of love, betrayal, and the complicated allure of bougie domesticity
“Dinan writes like some kind of demigod. Her fictions make thinkable new realities for how we live and what we might expect from each other."–Torrey Peters, author of Detransition Baby
I don’t know why I feel like I’ve been caught doing something dirty. Cheating on queerness. Fell down the stairs and woke up a trad wife.
Thirty years old with a lifetime of dysphoria and fuccbois rattling around in her head, Max is plagued by a deep dissatisfaction. Shouldn't these be the best years of her life? Why doesn't it feel that way? After taking a spill down the stairs at a New Year’s Eve party, she decides to make some changes. First: a stab at good old-fashioned heteronormativity.
Max thinks she’s found the answer in Vincent. While his corporate colleagues, trad friends, and Chinese parents never pictured their son dating a trans woman, he cares for Max in a way she’d always dismissed as a foolish fantasy. But he is also carrying baggage of his own. When the fall-out of a decades-old entanglement resurfaces, Max must decide what forgiveness really means. Can we be more than our worst mistakes? Is it possible to make peace with the past?
Funny, sharp, and poignant, Disappoint Me is a sweeping exploration of love, loss, trans panic, race, millennial angst, and the relationships—familial and romantic—that make us who we are.
©2025 Nicola Dinan (P)2025 Random House AudioCritic reviews
“Nicola Dinan writes like some kind of demigod. Her fictions make thinkable new realities for how we live and what we might expect from each other.”―Torrey Peters, author of Detransition Baby
“[A] humorous but heartfelt look at finding love in your 30s and breaking free of the conventions—climbing the career ladder, getting married—that box us all in.”—PopSugar, “32 Essential Books by Trans and Nonbinary Authors to Add to Your Reading List”
“The up-and-coming trans author of Bellies returns with Disappoint Me, where Max, a poet and tech worker, decides to switch up her life by pivoting to heteronormativity. She finds good company in Vincent, a lawyer, who has baggage of his own; a whirlwind and explosive trip to Thailand and a mother who isn’t sure about her son dating a transgender woman.”—Our Culture
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