
My Addiction Is Just Fixation
Or So They Say
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Faith Nunez
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What is left to do when society sees your addiction as nothing more than a fixation? When the doctor chuckles slightly and says you just need a hobby, that isn't gambling. Almost mocking you and your addiction?
At the age of 29 on January 20, I woke up, not from sleep, but mentally and crashed to earth with a bang realising I had a gambling problem. This book takes you through my journey. It tells you about how I had gambled without issues for years before, until that one year where I lost over £30,000 to online gambling. I express about how bad my mental health was, how close I was to considering suicide after even doctors didn't seem to want to believe in my addiction. With everything going on with Covid19, the lockdowns have pushed me mentally. I have noticed an increase in advertisements from gambling companies, and how many are pushing at women. This book is an insight into how gambling really affects someone, how it made me so unstable, I considered suicide. It explains how not just from doctors, but others, I felt like my addiction wasn't real, and it would take something drastic like me going through with suicide to get the point across and have people listen to me.
This book has a lot of triggers. Please listen with caution. In the world we live in today, something needs to change, and I hope listening to this book will encourage it.
©2021 Billiejo Priestley (P)2021 Billiejo PriestleyListeners also enjoyed...
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