
Thinking Out Loud
Love, Grief and Being Mum and Dad
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Paul Thornley
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Rio Ferdinand
About this listen
'Nothing can ever ease the pain of the death of someone you love; nothing can magic it away. But if I can help anyone else facing what we have gone through, what we're still going through, by sharing what I've learnt, our loss won't feel completely meaningless.'
In 2015 former England football star Rio Ferdinand suddenly and tragically lost his wife and soul mate, Rebecca, age 34, to cancer. It was a profound shock, and Rio found himself struggling to cope not just with the pain of his grief but also with his new role as both mum and dad to their three young children. Rio's BBC1 documentary Being Mum and Dad touched everyone who watched it and won huge praise for the honesty and bravery he showed in talking about his emotions and experiences. His book now shares the story of meeting, marrying and losing Rebecca, his own and the family's grief - as well as the advice and support that get him through each day as they strive to piece themselves back together. It is written in the hope that he can inspire others struggling with loss and grief to find the help they need through this most difficult of times.
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- Mohamed.Hindawy
- 07-23-20
Life changing
A year has gone since my uncle passed away. Now I know gow to grief
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