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Jenelle Jessop

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About this listen
This short book is written in 3 parts. Part 1 is the history, indoctrination, and setting of the church. Part 2 is my story in the church. In part 3, I talk about the struggles I face as a result of my upbringing, what I’ve learned about the world, and where I am now in this journey of life.
Much time and revision went into this book. If I mentioned you and you feel I treated you unfairly, I apologize. If I did not mention you and you feel that I should have, know I did not deliberately exclude you.
I hope you enjoy this short book. Happy reading!
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- Grace White
- 01-01-25
Good book, but didn’t like the AI reading it!
I didn’t like the book being read by AI. I thought it of course lacked emotion and empathy but I really like listening to other people’s stories from the FLDS since it is unique.
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- Chasity
- 02-10-25
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I didn't like the virtual voice. It didn't pronounce all words correctly. It wasn't authentic.
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- Jessica Ladner
- 10-29-24
The AI reading sucks
This is more like a long winded essay than a book. A lot of the information is repeated more than once
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