
Instrumental
A Memoir of Madness, Medication, and Music
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Mark Meadows
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James Rhodes
About this listen
James Rhodes' passion for music has been his absolute lifeline. It has been the thread that has held him together through a life that has encompassed pain, conflict and turmoil. Listening to Rachmaninov on a loop as a traumatised teenager or discovering an adagio by Bach while in a hospital ward - such exquisite miracles of musical genius have helped him survive his demons and, along with a chance encounter with a stranger, inspired him to become the renowned concert pianist he is today.
This is a memoir like no other: unapologetically candid, boldly outspoken and surprisingly funny, James' prose is shot through with an unexpectedly mordant wit, even at the darkest of moments. An impassioned tribute to the therapeutic powers of music, Instrumental also weaves in fascinating facts about how classical music actually works and about the extraordinary lives of some of the great composers. It explains why and how music has the potential to transform all of our lives.
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- Paz Boudreau
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From suffering to salvation
Heartbreaking and inspiring story life. So much pain turned into a life learning, inspiring and emotional journey. We are all fuck up... and the only way to live a life of happiness is through art of any type. This is what this book is about. Thank you for sharing your story. You are not alone.
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