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Narrated by:
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Candice Moll
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By:
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Helena Fox
About this listen
'Every now and then you pick up a novel and you know you've found something wonderful - a glorious voice, a character you adore. Helena Fox's novel delivers. It is exquisite. Read it.' Cath Crowley
Biz knows how to float. She has her people, posse, her mum and the twins. She has Grace. And she has her dad, who tells her about the little kid she was, and who shouldn't be here but is. So Biz doesn't tell anyone anything. Not about her dark, runaway thoughts, not about kissing Grace or noticing Jasper, the new boy. And she doesn't tell anyone about her dad. Because her dad died when she was seven. And Biz knows how to float, right there on the surface - normal okay regular fine.
'A profoundly moving story about grief, loss, and love that will take your breath away. Helena Fox is a writer to be reckoned with.' Kathleen Glasgow
'This book will explode you into atoms, put you back together, and return the new shape of you to earth. Alive with sensation and rich in thought and feeling, How It Feels to Float intensively explores what it's like to be here now.' Margo Lanagan
'Mesmerizing and timely.' Bustle
'Impossibly beautiful.' Kerry Kletter
2020, Victorian Premier's Literary Awards Prize for Writing for Young Adults, Winner
2020, ABIA Book of the Year for Older Children, Long-listed
2020, Prime Minister's Literary Award for Young Adult Fiction, Short-listed
2020, CBCA Book of the Year for Older Readers, Short-listed
2020, Indie Book Awards Young Adult, Long-listed
2020, NSW Premier's Literary Awards Ethel Turner Prize, Short-listed
2019, Queensland Literary Awards Young Adult Book Award, Short-listed
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