
If You Stay
Beautifully Broken, Book 1
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Loretta Rawlins
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Nicholas Tecosky
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By:
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Courtney Cole
About this listen
For fans of Jessica Sorensen, J. A. Redmerski, and Abbi Glines...
Twenty-four-year-old Pax Tate is an asshole. Seriously. He's a tattooed, rock-hard bad boy with a tough attitude to match. His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with an intense guilt that he doesn't understand. What he does know is that he and his dad were left alone, and they have never been close. Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the black void in his soul. He pretends that the emptiness isn't there and this has always worked…until he meets Mila.
Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air that Pax has never known in his life. He doesn't know how to not hurt her - but he quickly realizes that he'd better figure it out because he needs her to breathe. When the memories of his mother's death resurface to haunt Pax, Mila is there to save him from his overwhelming guilt. Mila restores his broken heart, even as she evokes his powerful, sexual desires. Now for Pax to keep Mila, he needs to work on his issues - and stop being an asshole. But is that enough to make her stay?
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- 05-03-17
Great story!
If you could sum up If You Stay in three words, what would they be?
Love is unconditional
What did you like best about this story?
The characters
Which character – as performed by Loretta Rawlins and Nicholas Tecosky – was your favorite?
They both did fine
If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?
X-Rated
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I loved this book and enjoyed being able to listen to it
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- S0nz4Me
- 01-03-17
If You Read This...
It starts out with a punch and keeps on going in an opposites attract scenario. Though I didn't care for the narration, the story kept me interested. I'm a new fan of Courtney Cole.
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- Jensi Mooney
- 05-07-19
Loved
This author is amazing!! !ll the feels. Sweet and tragic and so many emotions. Read it!!
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- Meraline
- 07-20-15
Shoot me..
Would you try another book from Courtney Cole and/or Loretta Rawlins and Nicholas Tecosky ?
At this point I'm just staying away from the narrators not the author. I'll give Courtney Cole another chance.
Would you ever listen to anything by Courtney Cole again?
Yes,
How could the performance have been better?
Better female narrator.
You didn’t love this book... but did it have any redeeming qualities?
The story seemed ok, but the really bad narration just couldn't keep me going.
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