
Where I Live Now
A Journey through Love and Loss to Healing and Hope
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Sharon Butala
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Sharon Butala
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An intimate and uplifting book about finding renewal and hope through grief and loss.
"It was a terrible life; it was an enchanted life; it was a blessed life. And, of course, one day it ended." (Sharon Butala)
In the tradition of Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking, Diana Athill's Somewhere Towards the End, and Atul Gawande's Being Mortal comes a revelatory new book from one of our beloved writers.
When Sharon Butala's husband, Peter, died unexpectedly, she found herself with no place to call home. Torn by grief and loss, she fled the ranchlands of southwest Saskatchewan and moved to the city, leaving almost everything behind. A lifetime of possessions was reduced to a few boxes of books, clothes, and keepsakes. But a lifetime of experience went with her, and a limitless well of memory - of personal failures, of a marriage that everybody said would not last but did, of the unbreakable bonds of family.
Reinventing herself in an urban landscape was painful, and facing her new life as a widow tested her very being. Yet out of this hard-won new existence comes an astonishingly frank, compassionate, and moving memoir that offers not only solace and hope but inspiration to those who endure profound loss.
Often called one of this country's true visionaries, Sharon Butala shares her insights into the grieving process and reveals the small triumphs and funny moments that kept her going. Where I Live Now is profound in its understanding of the many homes women must build for themselves in a lifetime.
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- 08-22-21
Wonderful book
I listened to this entire book in 2 days. It was a wonderful experience of coming to understand someone else's journey through grief which we will all go through. Her description of the prairie was lyrical and inspired me to plan to go to southwest Saskatchewan and the Butala ranch (or whatever it is called now). There was a lot of wisdom in this book as well as acceptance. I learned about my home the prairies but also about respect for history including the First Nations history all around us in Alberta and how land and weather really shape identify on the prairies. I had to laugh when she said that winters on the prairies are to be feared (especially highway driving) as this is true and people from elsewhere in Canada do not understand this. Thank you Sharon Butala for your eloquent writing.
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