
What They Meant for Evil
How a Lost Girl of Sudan Found Healing, Peace, and Purpose in the Midst of Suffering
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Many stories have been told about the famous Lost Boys, but now for the first time, a Lost Girl shares her hauntingly beautiful and inspiring story.
One of the first unaccompanied refugee children to enter the United States in 2000, after South Sudan's second civil war took the lives of most of her family, Rebecca's story begins in the late 1980s when, at the age of four, her village was attacked and she had to escape.
What They Meant for Evil is the account of that unimaginable journey. With the candor and purity of a child, Rebecca recalls how she endured fleeing from gunfire, suffering through hunger and strength-sapping illnesses, dodging life-threatening predators - lions, snakes, crocodiles, and soldiers alike - that dogged her footsteps, and grappling with a war that stole her childhood.
Her story is a lyrical, captivating portrait of a child hurled into wartime, and how through divine intervention, she came to America and found a new life full of joy, hope, and redemption.
©2020 Rebecca Deng (P)2020 Hachette AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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- sally
- 09-28-19
A moving story of a "lost girl" of Sudan
A book of overcoming war, loss of family, loss of innocence. Sadly still so much hate and warfare throughout the earth. Peace will come when Jesus sets up His kingdom during His millenium reign.
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- Amazon Customer
- 06-04-23
Words will not do this justice!!
I enjoyed hearing of Rebecca’s life, it’s inspiring, it reignites faith and it bring humanity closer together. Thank you for sharing your story sister.
I loved everything about this book, the flow of the story, the quotes, the biblical references, everything was written so well. May God continue to bless you Rebecca, you deserve it all.
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- Lisa Emerson
- 03-24-20
Wow Great Book
I really enjoyed this book and hated to pause it when I had to stop listening! I really enjoyed the woman’s voice narrating the book, it really put an authentic spin on things!
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- Badger 1
- 01-28-22
Inspiring!!
Wow! If you’re looking to make sense out of senseless suffering, this book will take you there. This book talks about the universality of oppression and racism and God’s faithfulness even when people are not. This book is challenging, thought-provoking and inspiring. I highly recommend this book!
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- Autumn M.
- 09-26-19
Amazing just Amazing
Rebecca Deng is an amazing author I loved hearing her describe the world through her eyes. My heart broke for the Dinka people and all the refugeese. Loved that the story was filled with love, hope, and faith all throughout this heartbreaking story. I am so happy that Rebecca was strong enough to share her story with the world. I feel like I am a better person after hearing it and I am now looking into ways to help refugees.
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- Anonymous User
- 11-15-19
Filled with hope. Beautifully written.
Loved this book. Overwhelming. Challenging. Left my in tears more than once. What a story of resilience, strength, and hope.
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