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Narrated by:
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Candace Thaxton
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By:
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Jen Beagin
About this listen
Miranda July meets Mary Karr in this brilliant debut novel from Jen Beagin, Whiting Award winner and "one of the freshest voices […] in years - funny, wise, whip-smart, and compassionate" (Jami Attenberg, author of The Middlesteins), about a cleaning lady on a quest for self-acceptance after her relationship with a loveable junkie goes awry.
Jen Beagin's quirky, moving, "frank and unflinching" (Josh Ferris) debut novel introduces an unforgettable character, Mona - almost 24, emotionally adrift, and cleaning houses to get by. Handing out clean needles to drug addicts, she falls for a recipient she calls Mr. Disgusting, who proceeds to break her heart in unimaginable ways.
In search of healing, Mona decamps to Taos, New Mexico, for a fresh start, where she finds a community of seekers and cast-offs, all of whom have one or two things to teach her - the pajama-wearing, blissed-out New Agers, the slightly creepy client with peculiar tastes in controlled substances, the psychic who might really be psychic. But always lurking just beneath the surface are her memories of growing up in a chaotic, destructive family from which she's trying to disentangle herself, and the larger legacy of the past she left behind.
The story of Mona's journey to find her place in this working-class American world is at once hilarious and wonderfully strange, true to life and boldly human, and introduces a stunningly one-of-a-kind new voice in American fiction.
©2018 Jen Beagin (P)2018 Simon & SchusterListeners also enjoyed...
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For Ruthie, the frozen town of Waitsfield, Massachusetts, is all she has ever known. Once home to the country’s oldest and most illustrious families—the Cabots, the Lowells: the “first, best people”—by the tail end of the twentieth century, it is an unforgiving place awash with secrets. Forged in this frigid landscape Ruthie has been dogged by feelings of inadequacy her whole life. Hers is no picturesque New England childhood but one of swap meets and factory seconds and powdered milk. Shame blankets her like the thick snow that regularly buries nearly everything in Waitsfield.
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A book without a plot
- By RueRue on 10-10-22
By: Sarah Manguso
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Boy Parts
- By: Eliza Clark
- Narrated by: Eliza Clark
- Length: 8 hrs and 10 mins
- Unabridged
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Irina obsessively takes explicit photographs of the average-looking men she persuades to model for her, scouted from the streets of Newcastle. Placed on sabbatical from her dead-end bar job, she is offered an exhibition at a fashionable London gallery, promising to revive her career in the art world and offering an escape from her rut of drugs, alcohol and extreme cinema. The news triggers a self-destructive tailspin, centred around Irina's relationship with her obsessive best friend and a shy young man from her local supermarket who has attracted her attention....
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A modern American psycho but British
- By sofia on 09-23-21
By: Eliza Clark
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The Overdue Life of Amy Byler
- By: Kelly Harms
- Narrated by: Amy McFadden
- Length: 10 hrs and 17 mins
- Unabridged
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Overworked and underappreciated, single mom Amy Byler needs a break. So when the guilt-ridden husband who abandoned her shows up and offers to take care of their kids for the summer, she accepts his offer and escapes rural Pennsylvania for New York City. Usually grounded and mild mannered, Amy finally lets her hair down in the city that never sleeps. She discovers a life filled with culture, sophistication, and - with a little encouragement from her friends - a few blind dates.
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Enjoyable narration. Story is an easy read.
- By Em Jay Reads on 07-18-19
By: Kelly Harms
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Exciting Times
- A Novel
- By: Naoise Dolan
- Narrated by: Aoife McMahon
- Length: 6 hrs and 55 mins
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An intimate, bracingly intelligent debut novel about a millennial Irish expat who becomes entangled in a love triangle with a male banker and a female lawyer. Ava, newly arrived in Hong Kong from Dublin, spends her days teaching English to rich children. Julian is a banker. A banker who likes to spend money on Ava, to have sex and discuss fluctuating currencies with her. But when she asks whether he loves her, he cannot say more than "I like you a great deal".
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It was ok...
- By zobo on 06-25-20
By: Naoise Dolan
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Animal
- A Novel
- By: Lisa Taddeo
- Narrated by: Emma Roberts
- Length: 10 hrs and 48 mins
- Unabridged
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Joan has spent a lifetime enduring the cruelties of men. But when one of them commits a shocking act of violence in front of her, she flees New York City in search of Alice, the only person alive who can help her make sense of her past. In the sweltering hills above Los Angeles, Joan unravels the horrific event she witnessed as a child - that has haunted her every waking moment - while forging the power to finally strike back.
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Should come with a lot of trigger warnings
- By Quinn on 07-13-21
By: Lisa Taddeo
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Luster
- A Novel
- By: Raven Leilani
- Narrated by: Ariel Blake
- Length: 6 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged
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Edie is stumbling her way through her 20s - sharing a subpar apartment in Bushwick, clocking in and out of her admin job, making a series of inappropriate sexual choices. She is also haltingly, fitfully giving heat and air to the art that simmers inside her. And then she meets Eric, a digital archivist with a family in New Jersey, including an autopsist wife who has agreed to an open marriage - with rules.
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Spellbinding
- By Nana on 08-07-20
By: Raven Leilani
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The Prophet and the Idiot
- A Novel
- By: Jonas Jonasson, Rachel Wilson-Broyles - translator
- Narrated by: Peter Kenny
- Length: 10 hrs and 7 mins
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In the fading days of late summer, 2011, self-taught astrophysicist Petra has calculated that the atmosphere will collapse in a few weeks’ time—on September 21, at approximately 9:20 pm—ending the world as we know it. But the distraught Petra will not have to carry the burden of this terrible news alone for long. Fate intervenes, bringing her into the orbit of a pair of unlikely companions: Johan, a man whose intellectual prowess is remarkably overshadowed by his culinary skills, and Agnes, a seventy-five-year-old widow who has made a fortune posing as a young influencer on social media.
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The performer’s impersonation are so cringe
- By ESTHER on 06-11-24
By: Jonas Jonasson, and others
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Milk Fed
- By: Melissa Broder
- Narrated by: Melissa Broder
- Length: 6 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
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Rachel is 24, a lapsed Jew who has made calorie restriction her religion. By day, she maintains an illusion of existential control through obsessive food rituals while working as an underling at a Los Angeles talent management agency. Rachel is content to carry on subsisting - until her therapist encourages her to take a 90-day communication detox from her mother, who raised her in the tradition of calorie counting. Rachel soon meets Miriam, a zaftig young Orthodox Jewish woman who works at her favorite frozen yogurt shop and is intent upon feeding her.
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Funny and uncomfortable
- By Kayla on 04-01-21
By: Melissa Broder
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Acts of Desperation
- By: Megan Nolan
- Narrated by: Lauren Coe
- Length: 6 hrs and 41 mins
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In the first scene of this provocative gut-punch of a novel, our unnamed narrator meets a magnetic writer named Ciaran and falls, against her better judgment, completely in his power. After a brief, all-consuming romance, he abruptly rejects her, sending her into a tailspin of jealous obsession and longing. If he ever comes back to her, she resolves to hang onto him and his love at all costs, even if it destroys her.
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Wonderful and tortured
- By Dr Sophie Henshaw on 05-01-21
By: Megan Nolan
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She's Always Hungry
- Stories
- By: Eliza Clark
- Narrated by: Kevin Shen, Sam Stafford, Natalie Simpson, and others
- Length: 6 hrs and 15 mins
- Unabridged
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From Eliza Clark, the author of the brilliant novels Boy Parts and Penance and one of Granta’s Best Young British Novelists, comes a fierce, visionary and darkly comic story collection. A woman welcomes a parasite into her body. A teenager longs for perfect skin. A scientist tends to fragile alien flora. A young man takes the night into his own hands. Unsettling, revelatory, and laced with her signature dark humor, Eliza Clark’s debut short story collection plumbs the depths of that most basic human feeling: hunger.
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Eliza Clark’s enchanting narrations.
- By P. Stein on 02-20-25
By: Eliza Clark
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The Silence
- A Novel
- By: Susan Allott
- Narrated by: Melle Stewart
- Length: 11 hrs
- Unabridged
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It is 1997, and in a basement flat in Hackney, Isla Green is awakened by a call in the middle of the night: her father phoning from Sydney. Thirty years ago, in the suffocating heat of summer 1967, the Greens’ next-door neighbor Mandy disappeared. At the time, it was thought she had fled a broken marriage and gone to start a new life; but now Mandy’s family is trying to reconnect, and there is no trace of her. Isla’s father, Joe, was allegedly the last person to see her alive, and now he’s under suspicion of murder.
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Way too depressing and unsettling.
- By Jim on 07-24-23
By: Susan Allott
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- Jenn
- 12-21-23
A lightened taste of reality
Corky, dark humor. A addicting storyline and can’t wait to read the sequel. One of my favorite audiobooks ever.
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- MakgeolliBabe
- 05-26-24
Enjoyable but not a home run for me.
I love Jen Beagin and I liked this book. It was an easy listening but didn’t knock it out of the park like Big Swiss, for me. Still worth a lesson. Didn’t totally love the narrator either. Some of the time female narrators doing male voices just makes the characters sound as if they are dumb or at least unbelievable. Just a personal preference.
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- Erin Chapman
- 08-17-24
Love love love
Loved this book & the audio book narrator, if you like to laugh, and can handle difficult subject matter & a complicated protagonist I can’t recommend it enough. I don’t think I don’t think I could t
hang out w anyone who doesn’t love this book.
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- Anonymous User
- 06-13-18
story makes up for bad narration
I don't normally review, but I think it's worth mentioning that in my opinion the narrator doesn't do the story justice. The tone was completely off and she would often go for long stretches without taking a breath which was distracting. The character voices were decent but the narration almost ruined it. Awesome, complex, dark, comedic story saved the day. Would like to read the book myself now.
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- Amazon Customer
- 03-09-19
I laughed, I cried, it was better than cats!
Loved the descriptive detail. The characters were captivating- I felt like I knew them.
Can’t wait to read Jens next book.
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- adrianne rubenstein
- 01-18-24
best writer
another perfect book. i listened to big swiss last week, which is also perfection. pretend i’m dead is a portrait of an artist. beagin uses literature to weave story with perception and self awareness. these are the kind of books i like best. beagin is a genius and a true freak and palpably inventively honest.
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- swyrlgirl
- 01-06-25
SA warning
This book is well written and read. Author has talent but no plot. Lots of masturbation. There was only 1 likable character in the last 50 minutes. It's about a self-destructive SA survivor. Every character except the aforementioned was either an abuser or abused. It's depressing and TMI on random characters kinks. It's more like a confession than a story. I'd return it if I could but it was on sale. BTW, Not being able to return a book you didn't use a credit on is next level BS.
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- lisa parda
- 10-05-20
Gritty and funny
Beautifully written while pulling on the heart strings . Feels like an honest peek into a real life through a real job. Loved it through and through
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- Be Steadwell
- 04-13-25
luster meets on all fours
I listened to this on a road trip and enjoyed it. The protagonist is a kind of fleabag don't care if I love or die person, numb out to avoid thinking about trauma, feelings, and somehow even with the dark themes- she seems unbothered. She makes it funny somehow. the characters are strange and interesting. I'm a fan.
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- Rummyfun
- 02-02-19
Happy Sad
I’m nowhere close to my 20’s anymore but this story resonated so strongly. It’s hilarity is so sad. Ms. Beagin has angst down to a T. Mona is a little bit of all of us, regardless of age, sex, race, or childhood memories.
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