
Perfectly Queer
Facing Big Fears, Living Hard Truths, and Loving Myself Fully Out of the Closet
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Jillian Abby
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Jillian Abby
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Jill had a happy, healthy 20-year relationship with her college sweetheart, two wonderful kids, and rescue cat from the Humane Society. They lived in a nice suburban home with a white picket fence and owned a small bar that was rated one of the “Best Mom & Pop” businesses in Tampa Bay. From the outside, everything looked perfect.
Perfectly Queer takes the listener on Jillian Abby's poignant and painfully funny rollercoaster of self-discovery as she identifies and eventually accepts herself as a lesbian just before her 40th birthday. Living her new truth means leaving behind a life that, by societal standards, is nearly perfect.
This is a story for anyone who is hiding a piece of themselves and wants to know if it’s safe to be revealed. It’s for the parent who must choose between their own happiness and the stability of their family, wondering if prioritizing themselves is selfish. It’s for the person potentially facing a major life upheaval filled with unknowns in the future who is seeking reassurance that everything will work out just fine. It’s a story of hope and inspiration to those who are starting or are in the middle of their journey, and an affirmation to those who have been through it to stand proudly on the other side.
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- J. Morrison
- 11-30-23
Excellent book!
Thank you Jillian. I’m so glad I found you. Great message. I enjoyed every minute. ❤️
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- Mandi
- 02-14-24
Exactly What I Needed to Hear
I’m on a remarkably similar journey and this book was just the comforting validation that I needed to keep pushing forward.
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- Jeanna L Giraldi
- 06-05-23
Perfectly honest & refreshing
This is a book that’s so much more than just about coming out .. this will help anyone who struggles to be authentically true to themselves. The authors wit and humor made it hard to push pause. I loved it from start to finish .. well worth the time and investment!
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- cesar fuentes
- 07-08-23
Such a beautiful story of love
Love this book. It is written so well. While I cannot relate to being a lesbian, there is so much here I can relate to. Living your truth, knowing what you deserve, knowing you can hope for a beautiful life, knowing we can get through the messy middle and come out the other side if only we are brave enough to leap. Thank you so much for writing this amazing book.
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