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Men of Fairlake
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Michael Dean
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Romeo Alexander
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My world is chaos, and he’s my only peace—but at what cost?
My scars are both visible and hidden. I’m lonely, but I do okay…I think. I’m still a bit of a disaster, but I have a job and a roof over my head, and the medication keeps my demons at bay. What I don’t need is a babysitter, but try telling my overprotective brother that.
When I first saw Luke, I couldn’t stop staring—his beauty and strength captivated me. As I get to know him, I realize he’s the calm to my chaos—the light to my darkness. Of course, he’s straight, so I can’t have him. But all it takes is what I thought was a hot dream, and it appears we’re both open to change. The lines are blurred, and he doesn’t have a problem with that…or me. I don’t deserve him, but he doesn’t see it that way. He’s perfect.
But he doesn’t know what I did. If he knew the ugly truth, I’d lose him. Luke and I can only ever be temporary, so I keep my secrets.
When the past threatens to catch up with me, I have a choice…keep the secret for the sake of me and my brother…or take a chance and tell Luke everything. But damn it, I can’t even get that right.
Is it too much to ask to love and be loved and have a chance at the future I desperately want…with Luke? The past is dead. So why won’t it stay buried?
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Gradual Building of Love!
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4.5 Stars-Really good book
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Another Good Story
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As far as the story itself... Romeo Alexander is just brilliant at breaking your heart and piecing it back together with these tragically flawed and loveable characters, and I'm in awe of his talent as well.
You could conceivably read this separately from the other stories in the series, and still love it just as much, but I definitely recommend that you read Cake & Comfort first because that was such a beautiful book and builds these characters and their backstory and it will make your enjoyment and immersion in this story of Felix and Luke's relationship that much more rich and engaging.
The thing that this author does, which I admire immensely is to write realistic, relatable, and believable struggles and conversations and reasons and healing for mental health issues and trauma responses. The author isn't simply using these things to further the plot or create manufactured drama or force characters into situations to get from point a-to-b in the story; the issues are handled well and with grace and it's refreshing to see that an author is willing to show a realistic portrayal of these issues in a story which complicates the relationships and that just because it's fiction doesn't mean it should always be rainbows and kittens. Nothing about Felix's life is or likely will ever be easy, but he's a character you have to root for. I love the way these characters grew into their friendship and how Luke was so compassionate and supportive and understanding and openminded; and I love how the friendship grew into a realistic relationship with a believable HEA because they were both on the same page and willing to do the work, together. I cannot wait to read all the books by Romeo Alexander; he's a definite automatic read for me from now on.
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All the Stars
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I have loved all the books in the series 
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When Felix meets Luke, he sees how attractive he is, but is aware that Luke is off-limits since he is straight. That doesn’t become an issue, though, because the two of them enjoy each other’s company and their friendship is easy-going. Luke has a calming influence on Felix and makes him comfortable. But when they enjoy the hot tub, and Luke’s drinking too much gets a conversation started, their friendship will definitely turn into something more. And things just might work out… at least until Felix’s sordid past catches up to him. Someone’s cruelty could hurt more than just Felix. Will they be able to get past this? Or will relationships suffer a quick end?
This author is amazing in giving us deep stories where the reader will experience many profound emotions. Readers will feel what the characters have gone through. Seeing happiness and love being offered can make all the difference for Felix. Has he found it with Luke? Will it be taken away? Are Felix and Grant at last ready to share their truth with those who love and care for them so they can put their lives together and begin to heal? The narrator for the audiobook version is Michael Dean. He does a great job with the voices to personalize the story and make it easy for the listener to get an accurate impression of what each character is like. It helps to set the mood, familiarizes the reader with the characters, and is a pleasant way to “read” and enjoy the book.
Luke and Felix's Story . . .
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Most of all that might just be a me-thing as well, because I really adore deep dives into characters with mental health disorders. I was also a little disappointed by the lack of any conversation about safe sex. They don’t use a condom ever, and when Felix realizes (mid-coitus), he doesn’t tell Luke, and it’s never brought up in the book other than Felix’s internal monologue when he notices. That sort of thing kinda fits with Felix’s personality, but didn’t seem like something Luke would do without discussing it.
I realize this ended up sounding very negative. It’s difficult to discuss those things without it sounding 100% bad, but I really did enjoy large parts of the book. I’m sad to see the author has used AI to make character art (on the book’s Amazon page).
Entertaining and emotional - lacks a bit of detail
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Felix and Luke
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Overall: 4.5 stars
Performance: 4 stars
Story: 5 stars
* * Original ebook review 11/12/23: * *
“Okay, I get it, you lamented my straightness.”
“Mourned it, set up an altar, lit some candles, threw on a veil, and threw myself to the ground for six hours as I wept openly.”
I absolutely loved this book. I adored both Felix and Luke. I like the way their relationship progressed and it felt very real and relatable. I loved the banter between them, and they made me smile more than once. Their chemistry was scorching hot! And I loved the way they supported and communicated with each other.
“You’re hellbent on this whole helping each other with our mental screwed-upness, aren’t you?”
A beautiful read. I'm a little sad this series is over, but I liked how it ended and I think this was my favorite book in the series. 5 stars.
I Enjoyed It
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