
Leaving Faith, Finding Meaning
A Preacher's Daughter's Search for God
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Simran Singh
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Lynne Renoir
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Lynne Renoir was born into a fundamentalist Christian family, where the Bible was the central focus. She was not allowed to make mistakes or to challenge her father’s opinions. Such behavior, in his view, was the work of Satan. As God’s representative in the family, her father believed it was his duty to belt the devil out of his daughter, and he did so regularly and severely.
When the beatings continued into her 20s, Lynne finally broke free. Convinced she was a failure as a believer, she left home, and for several decades she endeavored to live by the tenets of the faith in which she had been raised.
Then when she was 50, Lynne had an amazing experience of communication with beings in the spirit world. Under their guidance, she completed a Master’s degree in Psychology and a PhD in Philosophy. She then investigated quantum theory and mysticism, coming to the conclusion that everything in the universe is one. This led her to question the idea of an external, all-powerful being who sits in judgment on his creatures.
For Lynne, the experience of realizing the oneness of all reality has been life transforming. In sharing her fascinating journey from religious indoctrination to spiritual freedom, she reveals a way to those who are seeking to find their own pathway to liberation.
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- Jane Peranteau
- 11-18-23
Developing freedom
Having lost her car keys, author Lynne Renoir, after days of determined searching, decides to visit a psychic for the first time for help. The psychic tells her that her keys will not be found but introduces her to the pendulum as a tool for searches of all kinds, including answers to the life questions that burden her. Her explorations with the pendulum changed her life, beginning with conversations with Aristotle that led her to pursue her own studies in philosophy and theology. Her journey takes her far from her origins, where the book begins, to a deep understanding and a healing of the damage that began with family.
Born in rural Australia at the time of the coronation of Elizabeth as Queen of England, author Lynne Renoir grew up in a family governed by the fundamentally conservative Christian values her father preached, made harsher by his unsparing use of the rod to keep his four daughters in line. He was driven to convince her that being herself was sinful. Her connection to nature and her natural interest in music created a core identity for her in opposition to her father, opening a path to eventual freedom from his restricted view of faith to a loving and inclusive vision.
Taking readers through the chronology of her developing strength, Renoir writes with an authenticity and a sharp clarity that is compelling. In her final chapters, she lays out a path of philosophical study, to convince us, as Descartes wrote, that our own spiritual experiences contain more truth than the applications of reason and dogma we use to tame them. I recommend this book to any spiritual seeker looking for inspiration in the courage and honesty of the journeys of others.
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