
Illegitimate
How a Loving God Rescued a Son of Polygamy
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Jon Gauger
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Brian Mackert
About this listen
The shocking news of polygamous cults has sparked a national dialogue on religious sects.
Splintered from and repudiated by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, these secretive families exist in an insular world far removed from reality.
Yet for Brian Mackert, life inside this world was all too real. As a son in a family of one father, four mothers, and thirty-one children, Brian experienced firsthand the devastating reality of the polygamous lifestyle: a reality that leaves thousands of children feeling hopeless and struggling to belong.
Now Brian shares his remarkable journey from a broken life to a healed soul.
©2007 Brian J. Mackert (P)2011 Oasis AudioListeners also enjoyed...
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- Scrappy RN
- 12-08-16
Preachy
Really liked the first part but the end felt like he was trying to convert me to Christianity.
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- Larry
- 01-17-25
How did they allow for this narrator?
The narrator didn’t know how to pronounce many of the mormon words. It was weird. The book is literally a storytelling. There’s very minimal dialogue, there’s plenty of interesting facts about Mormon polygamy.
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- Jeff
- 07-14-21
Transparent, moving and insightful!
Touching example of God’s saving grace and the raw struggle, yet freedom, which comes in and through forgiveness. Thanks for sharing in vivid detail. As a Christian, I found this very helpful in relating to the otherwise secret and closed nature of those trapped in the Mormon ways.
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