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Melanie Murphy
About this listen
The warm, sparkling first novel from Melanie Murphy, author of nonfiction best seller Fully Functioning Human (Almost) is full of heart, humour and magic.
Erin is about to turn 30, and her life is definitely not where she thought it would be. She hates her job, she's jealous of her perfect flatmate - and she has just called off her wedding.
A trip home to Ireland to celebrate her birthday with her beloved grandmother is exactly what Erin needs, and she's spent days preparing herself to break the news about her broken engagement.
What she's not prepared for is the gift she receives: a secret family heirloom that will change everything.
Could this be the answer Erin has been looking for - the key to the happy life she's always dreamed of? Only time will tell....
©2019 Melanie Murphy (P)2019 Hodder & Stoughton LimitedListeners also enjoyed...
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- Elizabeth Romo
- 07-15-20
exceeded my expectations
I love the book and it exceeded my expectations! It made me reflect on my own life:)
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- Jess
- 07-10-19
Amazing!
I loved this book! It was an amazing story and the narrator did a great job making it come alive! I would definitely recommend this book!
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- Kindle Customer
- 07-16-19
wonderfull!
brought back my love for books I recommend this for anyone who feels lost in life
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- Cliente de Kindle
- 08-02-19
me gusto pero no tanto
me gusto pero me pareció muy largo y el final un poco abrupto. le doy un 6
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- Maleigha
- 07-13-19
Beautiful Story!
This story is incredibly beautiful. The journey you take with Melanie’s writing is one full of self learning & love. During a bit of a hard time, this book was a welcome break. My only dislike is that it isn’t longer.
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- ZMR
- 06-17-19
Loved it! *spoilers*
I very much enjoyed ‘If Only’.
I appreciate a story told from this modern perspective that people in my generation are not settling as often as generations before us and are often lost at an age when our parents and grandparents had long since established their lives. We all feel that pressure that we’re “behind” in life and it’s refreshing to see that explored.
I also really liked how honest Erin’s character was. It’s rare that we get to see all the dark and typical thoughts that cross peoples minds in real life and it was done so naturally. We got to see her stupid humor and paranoia and quirks and insecurities and moments of being selfish or being a bad friend and it made her feel so alive. We also got to see her fight the negative parts of herself and learn from them. We got to see her use the necklace in ways that made her appreciate her real life and trust herself. It was such a great thing to see her learn to trust herself.
I was really into the seemingly mundane day-to-day situations and conversations between her and her friends that, when you looked below he surface, is meaningful without being as obvious. It truly just felt so real that I connected with it in a way different then most stories.
I also loved the evolution of ErIn’s character, the foundation of friendship, the effect of family, the serious topics represented without it being the “theme” of the story, the realistic timeline of her falling for Finn.
Such a lovely story! It felt so warm. One of my favorite movies is “About time” and this book gives me the same feelings. Brilliant job to Melanie Murphy!
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- Bek
- 10-18-19
love
Love the story and all the wonderful throw in your face advice that one thinking with what if. I just want more of hearing Erin's story. 💚
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- Me
- 11-03-19
Spoiler alert
Absolutely loved it. I have watched Melanie on YouTube and social media for years and just love her courage and the way she speaks. I knew I would love her writing style. I do wish that it had more about Erin and Finns life together but it's still also perfect the way it is.
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- K. Laubach
- 12-21-22
Loved
I absolutely loved this book. Very well written. I’d love to read more of her books.
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- rosalind o.
- 06-13-19
awful ‘gay best friend’ character
The writing was a bit schoolgirlish and rambly. The main character’s best friend is this dreadful character and a horrible LGBT stereotype.
The narrator was quite enjoyable to listen to - I’m not sure I could have stuck the book if I had been reading it rather than listening to it
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