
Getting Off
One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction
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Narrated by:
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Joy Osmanski
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Erica Garza
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A courageous account of one woman's unflinching and ultimately hopeful journey through sex and porn addiction.
A fixation on porn and orgasm, strings of failed relationships and serial hook-ups with strangers, inevitable blackouts to blunt the shame - these are not things we often hear women share publicly, and not with the candor, eloquence and introspection Erica Garza brings to Getting Off.
What sets this courageous and riveting account apart from your typical misery memoir is the absence of any precipitating trauma beyond the garden variety of hurt we've all had to endure in simply becoming a person - reckoning with family, learning to be social, integrating what it means to be sexual. Whatever tenor of violence or abuse Erica's life took on through her behavior was of her own making, fueled by fear, guilt, self-loathing, self-pity, loneliness, and the hopelessness those feelings brought on as she runs from one side of the world to the other in an effort to break her habits - from East Los Angeles to Hawaii and Southeast Asia, through the brothels of Bangkok and the yoga studios of Bali to disappointing stabs at therapy and 12-steps back home.
In this remarkable audiobook, Garza draws an evocative, studied portrait of the anxiety that fuels her obsessions as well as the exhilaration and hope she begins to feel when she suspects she might be free of them. And yet there is no false or prepackaged sense of redemption here. Even her relationship with the man she will ultimately marry seems credibly, painfully rocky as it finds its legs with several false starts. Erica's increasing sense of self-acceptance and peace by journey's end feels utterly earned and absent of recovery platitudes.
In exploring the cultural taboos surrounding sex and porn from a female perspective, Garza offers a brave and necessary voice to our evolving conversations about addiction and the impact that Internet culture has had on us all.
©2018 Erica Garza (P)2018 Simon & SchusterPeople who viewed this also viewed...
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Interesting read
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The way that Erica shares and exposes her rawest self with a lack of checking in on herself sheds light on the unhealthy behavior patterns created, and the grasp it can have on your soul; Bringing you down and never letting you reach your truest potential, like with any true addiction. When you face her demons with her in this book it becomes a book of healing and confronting the demons that lies in this seemingly "cool" addiction.
For the girl who needs to meet her inner woman
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A very intimate read
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Finished it in two days
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Getting OFF!
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...very forthright.
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I wanted to read about sexual addiction and I got exactly what I was looking for.
Helpful
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wear your seatbelt
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Excellent read
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Great listen for men & women
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