Addiction Memoirs

Grey mouse: Super-agent or mind control victim? What happens when a child is programmed at a psychiatric hospital for secret projects? This collection of experiences delves into the covert nature of programs such as MK-Ultra, systematic torture, sexual manipulation training, and psychological abuse. This process creates an altered personality to execute missions on this world and others for violence, sex, space wars, the occult, and espionage. What results is a lifetime of the unknown, with fractured memories, lost personalities, and a double life.

A moving, compelling memoir about growing up and escaping the tragic legacy of mental illness, suicide, addiction, and depression in one of America's most famous families: the Hemingways.

Bryony Gordon is a respected journalist, a number one best-selling author and an award-winning mental health campaigner. She is also an alcoholic. In Glorious Rock Bottom Bryony opens up about a toxic 20-year relationship with alcohol and drugs and explains exactly why hitting rock bottom - for her, a traumatic event and the abrupt realisation that she was putting herself in danger, time and again - saved her life.

American Pain chronicles the rise and fall of this game-changing pill mill and how it helped tip the nation into its current opioid crisis. The narrative, which swings back and forth between Florida and Kentucky, is populated by a diverse cast of characters.

Here, Dr. Lawrence Peltz, who has worked as an addiction psychiatrist for more than two decades, draws from his clinical experience and on the techniques of mindfulness-based stress reduction (MBSR) to explain the fundamental dynamics of addiction and the stages of the recovery process, and also gives us specific mindfulness exercises to support recovery.

In this deeply moving and lyrical memoir, Hoppe shares an intimate, courageous account of what it means to truly interrupt cycles of harm. For fans of The Recovering by Leslie Jamison, Somebody’s Daughter by Ashley C. Ford, and Heavy by Kiese Laymon. During the first year of quarantine, drug overdoses spiked, the highest ever recorded. And Hoppe’s cousin was one of them. “I never learned the true history of substance use disorder in my family,” Hoppe writes. “People just disappeared.” At the time of her cousin’s death, she’d been in recovery for nearly four years, but she hadn’t told anyone.

Growing up in Charlotte, NC, my childhood was everything one would think of as normal. I went to a great school, had plenty of friends, took vacations, and had a close connection with my parents. It was all a seemingly perfect set up for a successful adulthood. But as senior year came to an end, and the familiarities of Charlotte began to fade, I entered a new space where love, depression, and a desperate search for purpose unraveled into a deep journey into drug and alcohol abuse. For the next 11 years, I’d chase highs from any drug I could find, move locations, cheat, lie, and steal ...

There is no light without the dark At the end of the day, when the day is spent, there is only one thing to do: think. You know there's a problem. You know there's a very real, very likely, disaster ahead. But you ignore it. Or someone ignores it. Or, perhaps, you feel that nobody cares. Whatever the reason, hope is slim. Life is tough and drugs are tougher. But don't give in. There is a light amid the dark, and I will show it. Let me help you. Personally, let me guide you from a place I knew too well. Hopefully, to a place you'll embrace as well. What do you have to lose? Depression, Drugs...

This memoir chronicles the escapades of aspiring actor and writer Charlie Gray, his downward spiral into a vodka bottle, and his profound realizations about life, family, friends, booze, trauma, and relapse as a now-recovering alcoholic.

They say the first taste of addiction often comes disguised as relief, and for Kevin Murray, that disguise was an innocent-looking white pill. Pills and Me: My Spiral into Addiction is an unflinchingly raw and personal account of a young man’s descent into opioid addiction—a journey from curiosity to survival in a world ravaged by a seemingly harmless but relentless beast. As Kevin tells it, his addiction didn’t begin with a reckless choice. It began with exhaustion, loneliness, and a desire to feel anything other than the crushing weight of his circumstances. From his first Percocet ...

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony. (Revelation 12:11) Are you battling demons from your past? Feeling bound by the shackles of shame? Do you long to break free from bondage? Kelsey Decker’s memoir is Mary Magdalene meets Damascus Road. A poetic story written for God’s glory. These pages are filled with love, loss, grief, trauma, and abuse. They also overflow with God’s mercy and grace. It’s shocking, intriguing, and beautiful. She is an overcomer of impossible odds, freed from addictions, prostitution, cult abuse, New Age beliefs, ...

This deeply personal and illuminating memoir about her 15-year struggle with heroin, Khar sheds profound light on the opioid crisis and gives a voice to the over two million people in America currently battling with this addiction. Growing up in LA, Erin Khar hid behind a picture-perfect childhood filled with excellent grades, a popular group of friends and horseback riding. After first experimenting with her grandmother’s expired painkillers, Khar started using heroin when she was thirteen.

My memoir book is in dedication to everyone who is suffering from addiction or knows someone who is. When I first started writing this book years ago, I had no idea the opioid problem would become as bad as it has. Too many people are dying from this epidemic, and it must stop. My childhood was taken away due to prescription drug addiction and created many problems for me growing up. If I can help even one person, then my mission is complete.

George Diener, World War II veteran and traveling salesman, and his wife, Carol, had old-fashioned values and ordinary aspirations: a home, a family, the pleasure of watching their two sons grow up. But in February 1972, an unthinkable tragedy occurred in the basement of their Nassau County residence, shattering their hopes and dreams forever.

Craig is 16 when he returns from a drug-fueled visit with his dad in Miami to find his mom leaving town with her 23 year-old boyfriend. In the same moment, his dreams of settling down with his pregnant girlfriend are dashed when she is moved off to Texas by her parents. Left alone in small town Oklahoma, he embarks on a deranged, cross-country quest for a family of his own. STILL LIFE WITH BRASS POLE is Craig Machen’s funny, debauched and heartfelt memoir about young love and coming of age in the titillation business. And how a roaring White Knight Complex, an eccentric comedy club owner,...

Piecing Together the Mind of an Addict Drug abuse and addiction don't start with a drug. They don't begin with that first use, or first high; and they certainly don't manifest in the ensuing darkness of drug dependence and depression. Addiction and alcoholism, true addiction and alcoholism, begin well before we ever indulge. It is the mind before matter, a unique clockwork of chemicals and wirings, of thoughts and feelings that bring us to truth: We, the drug addict, are not like the others Mental illness can be seen the world over, in numerous forms and numerous ways. For some of us, the ...

The incidence of addiction has become a major concern for many countries of the world. Youths and adults alike are being destroyed every day by this demon creeping quietly into their lives while we look on having practically nothing to do. I have observed that the solution to this global challenge is not in medical sciences or psychology. The solution is in the name of Jesus. Why do we have many people who made resolutions every year to quit drinking, drugs and other social vices but still find themselves in it after few days? The fact is that they are being held by a power stronger than ...

(This is a re-release of "Born to Lose: Memoirs of a Compulsive Gambler" that was published by Hazelden Publishing on March 3, 2005. Reviews for that book on Amazon can be viewed at: https://www.amazon.com/Born-Lose-Memoirs-Compulsive-Gambler/dp/1592851533/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1530771861&sr=8-1&keywords=born+to+lose%3A+memoirs+of+a+compulsive+gambler.) "My history of gambling really began before I was born." So opens Born to Lose, Bill Lee's self-told story of gambling addiction, set in San Francisco's Chinatown and steeped in a culture where it is not unheard of for gamblers (Lee's ...

When Peter Canning started work as a paramedic on the streets of Hartford, Connecticut, 25 years ago, he believed drug users were victims only of their own character flaws. Although he took care of them, he did not care for them. But as the overdoses escalated, Canning began asking his patients how they had gotten started on their perilous journeys. And while no two tales were the same, their heartrending similarities changed Canning's view and moved him to educate himself about the science of addiction.

Steve-O is best known for his wildly dangerous, foolish, painful, embarrassing, and sometimes death-defying stunts. At age 48, however, he faces his greatest challenge yet: getting older. A Hard Kick in the Nuts: What I’ve Learned from a Lifetime of Terrible Decisions is a captivating exploration of life and how to live it by an individual who has already lived way more than a lifetime’s worth of extreme experiences. Steve-O grapples with the right balance between maturity and staying true to yourself, avoiding selfishness, and finding the right partner for life.