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E107: Off With Her Head! – Fear of Mistakes at Work

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we face the Queen of Hearts inside our own heads—the one who screams “Off with her head!” at every tiny mistake.

“Fear of Mistakes at Work” dives into the paralyzing anxiety many of us with BPD feel in professional settings, where even small slip-ups can feel catastrophic.

Whether it’s over-apologizing, spiraling after feedback, or obsessing over being “perfect,” this episode unpacks the emotional weight we carry just trying to avoid messing up.

Join us as we talk about the roots of this fear, how it ties to shame and rejection sensitivity, and how to build self-trust in the face of imperfection.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E106 Paper Crown Syndrome: Feeling Like a Fraud in a Real Job

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the fragile weight of success that doesn’t feel real. “Paper Crown Syndrome” captures the imposter syndrome many of us with BPD carry—sitting at our desks, meeting expectations, maybe even getting praise… but inside, we feel like a kid playing dress-up in a grown-up’s job.

We’ll dig into why achievement feels uncomfortable, how self-doubt sneaks in no matter how capable we are, and why we’re so quick to believe we don’t belong.

This episode is a gentle reminder that just because the crown feels like paper doesn’t mean it isn’t earned.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E105: Stitching Back Together After Work

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the quiet, often invisible task of putting yourself back together after a day on the clock.

“Stitching Back Together After Work” dives into the emotional unraveling that can happen when you’ve spent all day masking, managing, and holding it together—only to come home feeling frayed, scattered, or numb.

For those with BPD, the transition from work mode to self can feel like falling apart in slow motion.

This episode offers space to name that exhaustion, validate the crash, and begin the gentle process of reassembling your emotional pieces with care, not shame.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E104: Echo Alice: Watching Yourself Play the Role

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we meet Echo Alice—the version of ourselves who smiles, nods, and performs the part while feeling miles away inside.

“Echo Alice” explores the eerie experience of depersonalization, where life starts to feel like a performance and you’re stuck watching yourself from behind the curtain.

For those with BPD, this disconnect can feel like a survival strategy: becoming who others expect, while losing sight of who you really are. Join us as we unravel the pressure to perform, the exhaustion of being everything to everyone, and what it might look like to step back into authenticity—one small truth at a time.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E103: The Disappearing Desk: Losing Time and Presence at Work

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we sit at the disappearing desk—the place where time slips, focus fades, and your body’s at work, but your mind is far, far away.

Whether it’s zoning out in meetings, forgetting tasks you swore you finished, or feeling like you’re watching yourself from a distance, this episode explores the surreal experience of dissociation and emotional disconnection in professional spaces.

With BPD, staying present at work isn’t always about motivation—it’s about managing overwhelm, fragmentation, and survival mode.

Let’s talk about the invisible challenges and rediscover small ways to stay grounded, even when the desk starts to vanish.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E102: Tea with Ghosts: Going Through the Motions

In this haunting episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we pour a cup of tea and sit with the quiet, hollow feeling of going through the motions.

“Tea with Ghosts” explores the dissociation, numbness, and emotional absence that can creep in with BPD—when you’re doing all the right things on the outside, but inside, it’s like no one’s home.

It’s showing up to life like a guest at your own tea party, smiling politely while feeling like a ghost at the table.

Together, we’ll name this fog, explore where it comes from, and gently ask what it’s protecting us from—because even ghosts have stories worth hearing.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E101: Through the Job Door, But Not All of Me Came

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore what it feels like to step into a job while leaving parts of yourself behind.

Whether it’s masking emotions, shrinking your personality, or hiding your struggles with BPD just to appear “professional,” this episode unpacks the painful disconnect that can come with being employed but not fully seen.

Like stepping through a Wonderland door that only fits part of who you are, the workplace can become a place of quiet fragmentation.

Let’s talk about the emotional cost of compartmentalizing ourselves to survive—and imagine what it would feel like to bring our whole selves through the door.

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E100: The Shame Spiral Slide: One Mistake Feels Like a Moral Failure

Welcome to the 100th episode of Wonderland Unlocked—and what better way to mark the milestone than by sliding straight into one of the most intense experiences of BPD: the shame spiral.

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore how one small mistake can trigger an overwhelming emotional landslide, making us feel like we’re not just wrong—we are wrong.

Like Alice tumbling endlessly down the rabbit hole, shame can distort reality, isolate us, and convince us we’re unforgivable. But what if mistakes didn’t have to mean moral failure?

Together, we’ll explore how to pause the spiral, challenge the story shame tells us, and build gentler ways of holding ourselves when we slip.