It was the moment I’d been waiting for, my chance to finally ask her out. But I froze. I just stood there, watching her walk away, knowing I could’ve run after her, said something, done something… but I didn’t.

That quiet voice in my head that’s still trying to believe I can do it.

It’s late. I couldn’t sleep, so I got in my car and just started driving — no map, no direction, just like my life right now. I don’t know where I’m going, or if I’ll ever make it. But somewhere in the silence, I started thinking about the days when it was even worse. Days when I didn’t even have a dollar to my name.

And now, even though things feel messy and far from perfect, I realize I still have something a lot of people in this world don’t — clean water, food, a car, a chance.

It’s been one of those days — no lunch, no break, just work and water. And yet, somehow, this “normal” day made me realize something. Maybe one day when I’m older, I’d give anything to come back to this moment… even if it feels like a mess right now.

Maybe life isn’t as shitty as it feels — maybe I just need to take a step back.

This episode is me sitting in the quiet, trying to be grateful for what I still have.

Yup, the cycle begins again. Back to the starting line. Back to nothing all over again.

A personal realization about how fear shapes our decisions and the importance of facing it.

Sometimes the hardest part isn’t what happened, it’s forgiving yourself for it. In this episode, I talk about the weight we carry, the mistakes we replay, and the slow process of trying to move forward. If you’re in a tough place right now, this one’s just a reminder: you’re not alone, and it’s okay to take it one step at a time.