🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 7a

Title: Make my yeses my yeses and my noes my noes

Description:

It’s July 6th, 6:04 AM, and this one’s a full-body confessional. I start with Romans 8:6 and spiral into one of the hardest patterns in my life—saying things I don’t follow through on. From small unseen commitments like sending Sahid a GPT login, to broken boundaries around Twitter and time, I confess how deeply this pattern has eroded self-trust and obedience. Mid-rant, a string of blue trucks drives by. I believe God’s affirming this is a core fracture that must be healed. I pray hard for a new heart—one that honors my word, even when no one’s watching.

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• Romans 8:6 and obsession with self as a spiritual dead-end
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• Resentment around how truth is only accepted from certain voices
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• Why I’ve struggled my whole life to follow through on small commitments
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• A raw confession about not honoring my word to Sahid
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• Patterns of procrastination, over-promising, and ego-driven prioritization
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• The spiritual weight of disobedience in the unseen
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• A gut-level prayer asking God to create a clean heart and redeem lost time
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “This one's gonna be a messy one…”

01:15 – Romans 8:6 from The Message: self-focus is a dead end

06:40 – “I suck at keeping my yeses my yeses and my noes my noes”

18:28 – “Blue truck. Another blue truck. Double blue truck…”

30:55 – “It builds self-trust when you honor your own word—even when no one sees it”

43:42 – Prayer: “Create in me a clean heart, oh God… Redeem the time”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

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• Romans 8:6 – “The mind governed by the flesh is death…”
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• Matthew 5:37 – “Let your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No’”
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• Psalm 51:10 – “Create in me a clean heart, O God…”
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🧠 Core Takeaway:

What I call “small” obedience might be the very thing God’s waiting on to unlock everything else.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional S2E7a — Lord, make me into a man whose yes is yes and no is no—even when no one sees it but You.